Sorry guys. I know you all hate me and my posts. I hate being this way.
I have serious health problems that impact my brain.
I had Lyme disease and Babesiosis so bad it did damage to my immune system and I ended up with MGUS.
The MGUS puts me at a higher risk for blood cancer.
As a result I also have other issues, mental capacity declining, memory issues, fogy brain which I think ends up making me seem insane. My doctor says I have early dimensia and Alzheimer's.
I take medicine for the symptoms and the severe pain. The medications also mess with my mind. I am also high risk for cancer as mentioned above so I go to Fox Chase Cancer Center every few months for monitoring.
It is no fun, but it has a lit to do with why I am how I am.
I wasn't always like this. I hate that I jump back and forth and half the time don't recall what I did or said.
I keep notes all over the place just to keep my life in order somewhat.
One thing my doctors have said is the fact that I eat so well and work out regularly and have been into bodybuilding and power lifting, natural of course, that it has helped my body cope with the infection and disease.
Thanks for listening.
Oh and loving music, guitar and gear doesn't help either.
In my travels I know I have upset and hurt some people and for that I am sorry. I am a good person and try to do my best and have not felt like myself in some time.
I am going to be taking a break from forums for quite some time. I need to clear my head and concentrate on my health, work and family. I have a 9 year old daughter who needs my time more than gear.
Thanks for the support.