
Jordon
New member
Well, for those of you who don't know me, I'm Jordon. I'm 21, and ever since I picked up a guitar at 12, music has been my life. I've always had thoughts and dreams of doing something in music for a living. Either being a professional musician, or a producer or studio/live engineer. I've had thoughts of even opening up my own studio and instrument repair shop in one building. Basically, I want to do something involving music or guitars for the rest of my life. Now even thought I'm only 21, 22 in 6 days, I feel like I have to get moving in life. I feel this need and drive to make something of myself, or at least get started at it.
I've been working a wonderful job the past 4 months, as a temp-to-hire. I love what I'm doing, and I could really make a career out of it if I had to, and I would be ok with it. The thing is, I as temp-to-hire, but they have just decided that the will not be continuing my position. I've been forced to make a decision before my position ends. I could go back to school and put myself into more debt, and follow what I love (Berklee), or I could take a job doing something I'm great at, but do not enjoy as much, and basically throw any music career out the window for a few years.
The job I'm speaking of is driving bluk semi's over-the-road for Schneider National. They are a great company, and I would have the chance to travel. I could eventually work my way into a dedicated route where I'd be home every day, but that'll take a few years. I'd be starting somewhere around $40,000 a year, maybe a bit less, which is less then I'd be making if my company now hired me on full-term. I love driving, and I'm great at driving tractor-trailers. It is something that runs in my family I suppose. I'd be a 3rd generation OTR driver...well if I were my uncle's son, anyway. I want to go back to school, but I was stupid at 18 and got myself a huge amount of debt, and just cannot afford it, and loans would just fuck me even more.
I would be starting my traning in a month or so, and I'd be up in Green Bay, WI for 2 to 3 weeks, (hey JB!). I'm just so nervous about this all. On one hand, I want to do this, to strike out; but on the other hand, I dont want to leave what I have musically behind. I just started a new project, and I really think it could take off. I'm just afraid of a part of my dying when I do this. Of course I could get a good laptop and bring my PRS and a recording interface on the road with me and write my own stuff...almost a necessity for me. This job would bring a lot to the table in terms of pay, benefits and the chance of travel and freedom in my job, but the changes are actually frightening to me.
I dont get shaken easily. I've been in a situation where I died acording to the paramedics, and during that whole fiasco, I was not afraid. I am now though. For the first time in my life, I'm actually afraid of the next step I'll be making. I've had 3 panic attacks since last Friday when I found out about my job. I guess I just need some mojo or some good words from you all. Like many of you, I consider this board to be a sort of family, my family outside my bloodline.
Thanks for reading my story, and all that good stuff.
-Jordon P
I've been working a wonderful job the past 4 months, as a temp-to-hire. I love what I'm doing, and I could really make a career out of it if I had to, and I would be ok with it. The thing is, I as temp-to-hire, but they have just decided that the will not be continuing my position. I've been forced to make a decision before my position ends. I could go back to school and put myself into more debt, and follow what I love (Berklee), or I could take a job doing something I'm great at, but do not enjoy as much, and basically throw any music career out the window for a few years.
The job I'm speaking of is driving bluk semi's over-the-road for Schneider National. They are a great company, and I would have the chance to travel. I could eventually work my way into a dedicated route where I'd be home every day, but that'll take a few years. I'd be starting somewhere around $40,000 a year, maybe a bit less, which is less then I'd be making if my company now hired me on full-term. I love driving, and I'm great at driving tractor-trailers. It is something that runs in my family I suppose. I'd be a 3rd generation OTR driver...well if I were my uncle's son, anyway. I want to go back to school, but I was stupid at 18 and got myself a huge amount of debt, and just cannot afford it, and loans would just fuck me even more.
I would be starting my traning in a month or so, and I'd be up in Green Bay, WI for 2 to 3 weeks, (hey JB!). I'm just so nervous about this all. On one hand, I want to do this, to strike out; but on the other hand, I dont want to leave what I have musically behind. I just started a new project, and I really think it could take off. I'm just afraid of a part of my dying when I do this. Of course I could get a good laptop and bring my PRS and a recording interface on the road with me and write my own stuff...almost a necessity for me. This job would bring a lot to the table in terms of pay, benefits and the chance of travel and freedom in my job, but the changes are actually frightening to me.
I dont get shaken easily. I've been in a situation where I died acording to the paramedics, and during that whole fiasco, I was not afraid. I am now though. For the first time in my life, I'm actually afraid of the next step I'll be making. I've had 3 panic attacks since last Friday when I found out about my job. I guess I just need some mojo or some good words from you all. Like many of you, I consider this board to be a sort of family, my family outside my bloodline.
Thanks for reading my story, and all that good stuff.
-Jordon P