To be honest, I'm not really yearning for my own successes. I've had some in life, absolute failures in others, but overall happy with what I've done musically. It's a little disheartening to know that one or two projects could have lasted a little longer, or done a little more, but whatever.
I'm more annoyed that I'm a great consumer of music. The thought that a lot of the bands i listen to soon won't exist and I'll never get to hear about them is what concerns me more. A lot of the output I've had pass through my hands has appeared from the Scandinavian countries. It's not surprising as those guys have held the extreme metal mantra for a good decade or two now. But even their output is diminishing in volume and often quality. Having had the opportunity to meet some of these guys after shows, a lot of them seem to say the same thing. Lower album sales = less ability to tour = diminishing likelihood of the band existing long-term. That said, I must admit I was shocked when at Vader's last show, they were selling tour shirts for £15. I bought three lol!
Anyway, for that reason, I can't in all consciousness steal music. I know I'm largely alone in that especially in a room full of musicians, but there we have it. It's an argument I've tried to put across to death, but alas sometimes you just gotta concede. It's one thing to get a free disk from a show, but I don't feel £5 for a local band's output is beyond anybody!