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So I picked up a job at the very beginning of this year that placed me in the middle of nowhere. I had to leave my band, and I couldn’t really join a new one because of the hours and the fact that this job has me bounce to some place new every year or so. I’ve been pretty much left a bedroom player. Most of my stuff is sitting in a storage unit back home, but I did take the effort to bring out my Diezel VHX and a guitar. It’s a lot of amp for a bedroom, but I figured I could really hone in over this year and get even better…
That didn’t happen. I barely touched the instrument at first, but then I started to force myself to do so, and it keeps feeling like I can never get the tone right. It feels like I can’t get the sound I used to love, and the things that used to frustrate me seem ever present. Outside of the tone, I’ve been feeling very repetitive, with a routine that has kept me stagnant. Every time I try to shake it up and maybe learn something new, I lose the motivation.
It’s been this comedown from what was a really solid musical environment to absolutely nothing outside of myself. My band and I had access to this warehouse in the middle of nowhere where we could all just really let loose and play as loud and as long as we’d like. There was a scene with lots of different musicians and bands where we could all drop in and jam with each other. There was a lot of organic inspiration for me previously. Now I’m in an apartment with a roommate where I have to keep it down, and nobody to play with either. There’s barely any venues here as well.
It’s kind of like musical depression? I say that because outside of this I’m doing pretty great, my life is good, I’m not actually depressed. But with this… I’m kind of sad and frustrated that something I’ve put in thousands of hours into and grown to love over the 11 years has kind of withered away. I don’t know whether I should change up my style and get a different amp and guitar. I don’t know if I should start practicing different styles. I’m kind of lost on this. Has anybody else gone through something similar, and then gotten out of it?
That didn’t happen. I barely touched the instrument at first, but then I started to force myself to do so, and it keeps feeling like I can never get the tone right. It feels like I can’t get the sound I used to love, and the things that used to frustrate me seem ever present. Outside of the tone, I’ve been feeling very repetitive, with a routine that has kept me stagnant. Every time I try to shake it up and maybe learn something new, I lose the motivation.
It’s been this comedown from what was a really solid musical environment to absolutely nothing outside of myself. My band and I had access to this warehouse in the middle of nowhere where we could all just really let loose and play as loud and as long as we’d like. There was a scene with lots of different musicians and bands where we could all drop in and jam with each other. There was a lot of organic inspiration for me previously. Now I’m in an apartment with a roommate where I have to keep it down, and nobody to play with either. There’s barely any venues here as well.
It’s kind of like musical depression? I say that because outside of this I’m doing pretty great, my life is good, I’m not actually depressed. But with this… I’m kind of sad and frustrated that something I’ve put in thousands of hours into and grown to love over the 11 years has kind of withered away. I don’t know whether I should change up my style and get a different amp and guitar. I don’t know if I should start practicing different styles. I’m kind of lost on this. Has anybody else gone through something similar, and then gotten out of it?
