stephen sawall
SEMI ERECT MEMBER
Turns out Tony Can't Walk is a other name he is using.
I no longer go by Metal Steve. So it kind of makes sense.
I no longer go by Metal Steve. So it kind of makes sense.
im over here eating dinosaur nuggets, downing whiskey and listeing to Nirvana!!
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JimAnsell2
Well-known member
kurt absolutely killed himself. Anyone who has ever experienced like SEVERE depression for whatever reason, knows. plus reading his notebooks that some grifty TOTAL PIECE OF SHIT released. There are a lot of things that seem dicey about his death, i get that...but that whole last 6 months of kurts public life, its pretty fucking obvious he was a little "checked out" so to speak. I remember all his filmed apperacnces back then were....different. He was donzo, wanted out, ready to make the move, but when you're ACTUALLY in the position, one thing that you consider is "who am i going to traumatize?". You consider who may find you, and what they may see, so you do it stategically so that no loved ones see you, and only "trained professionals" are seeing the dirty shit, so that your family doesn't have to live with that pain... cause they're already going to have the emotional pain weighing on them... you're trying to spare your loved ones of being the ones to find you dead....as if you're actions haven't traumatized them enough. I don't believe El Heffe's little story that he told the british film makers, or what any fan boys in denial think.... i'm convinced, with all things considered, that he totally wanted to die, and failed at trying in Rome a few weeks prior. when he got home (and him and Duff sitting next to each other on the plane out of pure chance, clearly didn't matter... that story is in Duffs book) he had the gun, and did the deed himself. Courtney was not emotionally equipt to deal with it. they were trauma bonded drug addicts together, and its clear as day. I don't think courtney killed him, but she was so fucked up at the time, she probably did and said things that made people wonder. i'm 100% still on the "kurt killed himself" train, and it was thought about for probably a year prior, at least".
life isn't for everybody. trama bonds are real, and destroy people. been there... almost killed mself... had the intricite plan ready. i've talked to people in support groups who were the same way....all good now, never going back to that place
But you guys gotta undersand that really creative/sensitive people aren't like the rest of us. i feel like i had that sensitivity worked out of me by life, having kids, and watching my career grow, but at my core, i still feel what guys like kurt felt, i just reacted to it in a healthier way. not that much healther...i still drank reasonably, and have a healthier way of administering my THC, but i'm still an addict. just a funcitonal, heath minded addict.
life isn't for everybody. trama bonds are real, and destroy people. been there... almost killed mself... had the intricite plan ready. i've talked to people in support groups who were the same way....all good now, never going back to that place
But you guys gotta undersand that really creative/sensitive people aren't like the rest of us. i feel like i had that sensitivity worked out of me by life, having kids, and watching my career grow, but at my core, i still feel what guys like kurt felt, i just reacted to it in a healthier way. not that much healther...i still drank reasonably, and have a healthier way of administering my THC, but i'm still an addict. just a funcitonal, heath minded addict.
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Techdeth
RESIDENT ROCK PROFESSOR
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AFI all day
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